If time could be stopped or reversed
I would stop the moment you took your last breath
I would reverse it back to the day before the last day I saw you
Then I would be able to tell you again that I love you
I would beg you not to leave me and I would ask you
“Who do think I will remain with when you leave me
What do you expect me to do when you gone”

Maybe so many questions would have had
HIM think twice about this whole arrangement
Maybe if I had taken care of you more,
He would not have done it
Maybe if I had told you that
“Mother despite everything that I have done in life
I am proud that you are my mother and not someone else”

I should have not let you leave the house that day
Maybe if I didn’t I would have seen you take that train.

There were days when I looked into your eyes
I would see that this earth is no more for you
There were times when I told you that are going to leave
You’d say I should never say that because you will never leave us
There were times when I would sing to you and tell you how much I love you
You supported everything I did because you cared
At times my voice would sound bad because
I couldn’t reach the high notes but you would have that smile that say
“My baby you sound good”
I would do the stupidest things ever and you
Smiled to every thing I did

I hated to see you cry but you always said you hate to see us hurting rather it is you
That’s feeling the pain not us and I used to find that so amazing

I love you ma and I tell you till today I still believe that one-day
I will see you come in the front door.

I hope you happy where you are.

Zanele Mavuso

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