Fear rises up inside me I take a step back from you
But you pull me closer again
And in your eyes I see the anger
Not angry because of me
Or something I did
But you’ll take it out on me anyway
I know what’s coming
You’ll knock me down
You’ll call me a stupid bitch
And tell me I’m worthless
And the more I hear it
The more I believe it I can’t leave you I can’t walk away
Not only because you’d follow me
But for fear of what you may do
To me or those I love
So I stay and listen to you
Berating me over and over
I deal with the hits I deal with the words
Or so I thought
You have destroyed me I realize now that u affected me
In more ways than I imagined
Affected how I view myself
Affected how I view others
Affected my ability to trust
Affected my ability to love
I’m working on getting it back
But in the process I have hurt those
I care for most I have pushed them away
And ruined precious relationships
That cannot be repaired
However, I regret nothing
Only because there is no time for regrets In this life
My only wish is that someone
Does to you What you have done to me
Kill you on the inside

ASENA MARIE SATAN'S SPAWN

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