DeMario Jackson is finally getting his chance to give his side of the story in the wake of the Bachelor in Paradise scandal… But it isn’t easy.

According to E! News, DeMario was choked up discussing how much the alleged sexual misconduct incident, that has since been reported to have been a false incident where no parties were ever in any harm, still had a negative affect on himself and his family.

He tells E! News, “It was stressful. For me, mostly for my mother… It’s hard to see your mom cry every single day. It was very difficult.”

After a hook up with Corinne Olympios, DeMario was accused of allegedly being in a situation where she was not able to consent to sexual activity.

DeMario tells E! News, “My dad, he kept me extremely strong and kept me grounded and humble but having your mom cry every day for something that you know you didn’t do.”

An internal investigation from Warner Bros has reportedly concluded that there was no misconduct, and Bachelor in Paradise has continued production.