A message to (anyone) feeling this way: 'Basically i joined this because ever since i was eleven years old i felt suicidal on and off. I am now 32. I always felt alone like I had no friends, stupid and not good enough. I am a recovering addict with 1year and 9 months. Getting high helped me escape my reality. Then it destroyed my life. So now I go to a.a. meetings and still feel out of place. I feel like no one likes me. I have no idea what i want to do with my life. I just wished I could feel better. I hate feeling suicidal. Its the worst feeling. I just wished I could feel loved. Most of all I wished I could love myself. :blub:'