yesterday i got a text saying my friend had died,
she had only just had her birthday,
we had times that i will never forget,
she was the greatest person i had ever met.
there really was no one else like her.
she had her problems like we all do but what she couldnt tell me,
killed her inside.

and then i got a few messages online this time.
my mate having another mid-life crisis.
telling me how empty he feels inside.
and that he wanted to end it all.
i wanted to cry,
but i didnt,
i snapped instead,
i told him again what to and how to do it,
and once again he said i wont bother you no more.
which in turn made me angrier than ever.
he has no idea nore cares as he never asks.

this is not a friend this is a drain on my state of mind and emotions.
im full of so many mixed emotions i dont know where to turn.
i wasnt ready to talk about it and pushed the ones how do care away.
to save them from getting the brunt of something that wasnt their fault.
and now it i pushed to far.
as im on my own now.
till the next one needs my helping hand.

Kelly Lushi

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/it-all-happened-at-once/