My fears are growing - as I know
it would - you are on a trip - you
who know exactly how life should
go - while I am making it up as I
go - and tonight I don't know what
should be my guiding light

I have decided to visit family - persona
non grata - this weekend - while you
are away - but whatever I decide - the
anxiety won't go away - whether I go
or stay doesn't matter - the fear won't
go away

And acting against your principles
are causing such havoc in my mind
so all could find to say was - I wish
I could close my eyes and drift off
into eternity...

Margaret Alice

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/close-my-eyes-and-drift-off-into-eternity/