Its 5am and still I don’t sleep,
Head in my hands I gently weep,
I have a pain that goes o so deep,
Exhausted,
I can barely stand on my own two feet.
Its 5am I find myself sitting on my bed,
I do not lie down because it hurts my head,
My body relaxes my mind runs wild,
Thoughts and emotions just spiral and spiral.
Its 5am and what do I see,
But the sun shining dimly back at me,
It’s a new day but when did yesterday go?
When did night give way to the early morning glow?
Its 5am and I’m almost scared to go to bed,
Scared of what thoughts I will think of next,
Ludicrous wonderings within my mind,
Thinking ridiculous thoughts all of the time.
Its 5am and I ask myself why,
Why must I feel nothing but pain behind my blue eyes?
I can’t shut down; my mind goes faster as it rushes by,
I’ve got me so angry that even if I try, I cannot cry,
Its 5am and times moving slow,
Getting so hard now all I want to do is let go,
Of everything in my mind in one swift blow,
But I can’t, feels like my thoughts are wrapped up in knots and bows.
Kaspa Richards
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/5-am/