why did i do ths
for i am more scared then ever
ican't stop shaking
i can't get rid of this feeling
i am forever dizzy
i am forever shaking
i wish this would stop
i wish i did give in to this craving
inever should have
i should have stayed strong
i should have fought this
never gave in
never
for now i am in more pain
more pain than i can handle

Scarlet .....

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/why-did-i-give-in/