All I want is to go on hating you,
But I can’t even tell anyone why.
You took something important from me,
Something from the look in his eyes.

I went looking for honest answers.
The answer was honestly you.
Even thought it shouldn’t matter,
I still just need to hate you.

This has become a game of hide and seek.
Hiding hurt, seeking consolation.
Seems to me all I’ve achieved
Is a new sense of alienation.

They think I’m the one who swooped in.
Shared something that was meant to be,
But I was never first, and that’s what hurts.
Now the person I hate is me.

Jessica Bieg

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-secret-6/