Laying here in my room
Talkin' bout this and that
Feelin' so sad, trying not to make you mad
How was I s'pose to know
He thought I hung the moon.

Isn't it ironic how we often
Find hope in that special tonic
Yet to believe that there's magic in the air
That someone could treat you fair
Is of an unspeakable manner

One things for certain,
If you look through filthy curtains
You're not gonna get a good view
Of what may be out there waiting for you.

Why is it I feel like I've already lost
Feels like my hand is already at the door
I feel like I'm going to fail at this one, can't be sure
Baby, It's time for me to go home
Don't wanna be left all alone.

Call it how I see it...
The pieces of the puzzle just don't fit
We can play eachother... tease our dreams
Truth is all this has got me bustin' @ the seams.

I want you to join me in life for eternity
Can't you just see
I've stood by your side for months now
My girls are needing me,
Both places at once... HOW?

Sure we'll have the phone
We'll even have the net
I got a bad feelin' bout this
Whatcha wanna bet
I'm gona wind up alone...

Just remember baby I tried
Cried a river in the last hour
My girls presence will give me the power
To face each day tho
And I'll pick up the phone and say 'hello'
Hell, I'm so nervous
My body shivering like jello.

Kristin Nicole RothDavis

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