I'm lying in this grave that I have dug for myself
He says I hold the key to my future...
but really what is my future

They scream and shout
Your not good enough
You'll never make it
Your just a narcissisitic little bitch

They scream and shout
'if I die its you fault'
But is it really...

I'm lying in this bed full of nails and regret

I'm just a misfit doll
you can poke me
you can prick me
you can punch me
you can slap me
you can stab me
you can rape me
you can beat me til I'm bloody
But....I....Don't....Feel....A....Thing

Cause my heart is black as coal
My heart is just a black hole

(11-10-04)

Brandi Young

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/black-as-coal/