Once the lights went out
I started running round circles
I couldnt figure it out
It sticks through my ribs
Covering my heart in frost

Carried away from home
Just dont let me fall asleep
i hate being alone

Looking for a chance to build the broken into something
But looking through the glass i dont seem that tall
How the hell am i suppose to reach anything at all?

And sometimes i wish i could go back home
Curl up in my blanket a dreams and be alone
It helps fight the battles inside
But its slowly loosing its stuffing
There has got to be a better way to figure shit out

I see love die
When it deserves to stay alive
So i lunge at every chance i get
Just to feel new again

And here we go again
What a shame ive become so fragile from the memories i once had
Within all the things ive done
Im stuck here wondering
What if i regret?
so i take it back
From those who catch my breath

Painting a nighmare with these veins that bled ink
Scribbling out my words
And jotting down my life
Spending my days in front of the mirror
Screaming
Till some days im sure ive lost it

Growing up isnt as promised
Burning all your expectations
It ropes you up
Who honestly wants this?

But i know my weakness found a strength
And my pain eventually caused
My search for hope
No matter how long

Tamara Puyear

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/growing-pains-17/