every time i see you
my body starts to tensen.
i fill with anger.
i fill with rage.
i may have apologized
but i don't mean it to this day.

i do not think i did so i apologize again.
my body so tense with anxiety
as i speak with you.
i do not want this time to be a lie.

so i will wait.
wait till i can speak to you
wait till i don't cry
wait till i can bare you
every thought and every time.

Shannon Snyder

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-not-ready-3/