The night was long,
I was unaware.
My body had deceived me with a polluted curse..
Tainted cells, the immaturity of those,
Created guilt for my inexperienced demise.
Confusion eroded,
As reality progressed.
The nightmare exists.
It's buried within.
Bias to foes,
I questioned faith,
Even by life line,
No signal of redemption.
Nothing…..
Silence….

Alone in a hospital bed,
awoken for tests.
They analysed me,
They tested on me….
Like I was there personal lab rat.
Prodded with needles,
At studies by peers.
A noble degree, but to who's cost?

The machine was my companion.
It never left my side.
It never judged my anger....
The Chemo left my suffering deep.
Like peroxide for the body.
It burnt, while it seeped
The Meds were helping,
but left me soggy, Dirty