Paranoia paranoia.
Footsteps and fingertips
Loss, regret
You left me empty handed
I don’t know this place
Where have you gone?
I hate being alone
I'm so alone
There’s rage prickling my skin
I see walls, I see my heart
I want to destroy them
I am neither calm nor stable
I’ve lost control
I want to destroy them
Panic panic; self loathing
I'm in a fucking panic
The sun is so sure
Of when to rise and fall
That sun is so fucking sure
I want to destroy it
But I don’t. I watch it rise again.
It’s breaking me. My veins run dry
I can feel my bones cracking
But I stand and walk anyway
Lift those cheekbones
Even if it takes the life from me
No steaming tears tonight
I will walk on.
Footsteps and fingertips
I'm so alone but I have control
I’ve already destroyed myself
I will know when to rise and fall.
Despite you I will not fall.

Sara Douglas

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/sacrafise-for-sanity-im-fucking-crazy/