I stare at the grave that should have been mine
Not his or anyone else
I stare at the people who care some much for him
So many of them I wish it were me
I should have died not him
He deserved the life he wanted
I deserve the nightmare I get
So I cry to myself and say goodbye
Goodbye to my friends

Samantha Martin

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